After the sudden loss of my brother I found myself carrying thoughts that felt too dark to say out loud. This space exists because I need to say them anyway.

Here, I’m giving myself permission to speak the unspeakable. Not for shock. Not for pity. But because by sharing the dark, you also invite others into the light of real connection.

This isn’t a grief guide. It’s not a step-by-step healing plan. It’s just one person trying to make sense of a new, unwelcome world—and hoping that in naming the ache, someone else might feel a little less alone in theirs.

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